I'm weird, I'm a mess, I'm annoying, good for nothing, no fun, ugly, stinky, fat waste of space that deserves no love.
I am a freak. And I have to accept that.
All I ask is that you stop pretending to care, Stop trying to make it like I'm not one.
I know I'm not okay and every single time it eats me inside how people I percieve as the worst humans ever. Rude, violent, uncaring, reckless, disgusting, manipulative, selfish, greedy people. Those people aren't alone. Those people aren't having it all that bad. They have people who care.
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SO I must be worst than them. God knows what I did wrong to have it so much worse.
I know I'm not okay and every single time it eats me inside how people I percieve as the worst humans ever. Rude, violent, uncaring, reckless, disgusting, manipulative, selfish, greedy people. Those people aren't alone. Those people aren't having it all that bad. They have people who care.
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SO I must be worst than them. God knows what I did wrong to have it so much worse.
When will I just give up on everything? Why do I still try?
I tried. I told myself I was alright, I was good, I was fine.
I tried for so long to convince myself. But really, just fuck me for doing so.
Why don't I just curl in a ball and die?
I tried for so long to convince myself. But really, just fuck me for doing so.
Why don't I just curl in a ball and die?
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