Have you ever had those times in your life, those phases which span for days or weeks, where you just see your life just take a major dump?
Well, that's what happened to me ever since I came back from vacation. Life just became so, BLEGH, and soon, my whole character followed my lifestyle.
It goes from being totally sloth-like, indifferent about everything, unable to take good care of own health, diet, hygiene etc.
Last night, upon completing Dishonored (which is one heck of a game might I add) at 3.30 am. I turned off my laptop, took out the headphones and just had a brief moment of awareness. Like when suddenly you pay attention to everything around you. Did I really just eat one pack of Oreo's, leave that cup of ice tea on my table for two days, brush my teeth once today, spend the entire day with very little social interaction?
Then I slumped over to my room to take a good nights rest and I saw my room was just Filthy. I had to push like 10 different things off my bed and there were just things everywhere. And from that moment, before I shut my eyes I prayed silently "..."
Well actually I forgot what I said cause it was freaking 3:45am but it went along the lines of, "Aih God, I pray for the strength to make myself better" or "give me the strength to clean my room tomorrow"
The thing is, praying can only get you so far, it's up to you to make that change.
What I believe is that, you can pray and believe God gives you all the opportunity and strength you need, but it's up to you to actually DO IT, and that's how YOU GROW and BE BETTER.
Today I learned things I already know, like how a clean environment helps boosts your attitude.
And how that attitude is pivotal in how you treat yourself, like how I'm off junk food once more cause I have a damn belly again (I swear I have the most pms metabolism ever) and I feel motivated once more to go out and do shit. Good shit. The shit that's good for me. Back to basics
TLDR
yep, cleaned my room, felt good, gonna conquer world
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