Five Happy Thoughts

Life has been frustrating
I've been getting very angry lately about just about everything there is to be angry about
Work, Friends, Family, Myself, World issues, Teammates

GOODNESS!

It's just been negativity after negativity, and it's been hard to tell when i actually feel happy or how I really feel about anything at all

I am trying my best to resist typing a 500 word rant about everything which has been such a complete pain in the neck recently.

Instead, I should recall the few bright sparks about the past weekend, (It's Monday night 11:13pm) It was the Hari Raya holiday break and boy oh boy was it.... tiring



FOCUS BOY!



Here we go!


1. I was reunited with an old friend. She came back for the holidays from matrics. I didn't keep in touch with her when she left. I met her at church. Boy oh boy, I felt so, myself, when talking to her! One thing which I find harder to do with the people who are around me the most. So, it was an amazing breath of fresh air to see her again and just enjoy each other's company. Being crazy and talk about simply everything that time allowed us to talk about. Which yet again, I find so hard to do with the people around me. I am truly blessed to have that short meet up with her :)



2. Getting MONEY BAY BEE¬ Although WORK is a pain in the arse (literally) having to deal with a horrible whore bitch of a shift leader, stubborn customers, etc. I felt happy to fall back on the fact I was getting paid well for just FOUR days of work. I felt driven by it. Plus, I was happy seeing some of the old faces again. The crazy kids who didn't raya, doing the crazy things we always do at work. The funny antics from customers,the really good workout.
Hey, perhaps the money was just an incentive! Albeit tiring, I enjoyed four days of work. Though, I don't wish to go back for a looooong time (I'm going back one last time next month T-T)



3. R-E-N-D-A-N-G chicken rendang, lamb rendang, chicken rendang again. I L-O-V-E rendang. and I got to have ALOT of rendang this weekend. It was pleasant to have that yearly dose of heaven.
Yes, that made me happy.



4. Why does it feel like it's been so long since I've done anything really FUN with friends. Well, this past Sunday, I had FUN with people I didn't even expect to see. I went to my teammate's open house and ended up having fun with people who weren't even from my team. The geeks, the gaming nerds, the noisy crazy 'uncool' ones. It felt SO EASY to be myself and talk to them, mainly because they are super welcoming as fuck. No offense to my teammates, but I just don't feel... happy... in their presence anymore. I don't get the joy of being myself in a loving company with my team, I just feel like an outsider watching the company I'm in. However with this group, they don't expect anything from you. Playing xbox, insulting each other, eating and going through vids till midnight. I simply cherish that company and I salute them for it.



5. I can hold a headstand for about 10 seconds =D shit like that makes me confident with my life and be like FUCK YOU INSECURITIES I DO WHAT I WANT.



A happy thought to end this post is that I'M GOING FOR LASER TAG TOMORROW :D

Thank you