Series of Fortunate and Unfortunate Events.

Fortunate and unfortunate are two different event types. When they are in union, would that just make them events?

Calm down, Jaden Smith



Uni life has been nothing but expected.
It is beyond anything I planned for or expected, and I am glad for that.

Things have been either hit or miss.
Everything and all I am now were due to life decisions which were hidden as simple initiatives.

There's still a lot to work on. And I just simply don't feel like I want to put my life story of university life on my blog.

I don't have closure here.

Basically its been either really fun, or really empty.

By chance I was an overenthusiastic noisy asshole.
By chance I fell in love with Sarawak.
By chance I totally wanted to come to study here.
By chance I was forgetful enough to leave my small group assignment letter in my room.
By chance I stood right in front of the line of people who left their paper in the room.
By chance I met a person who made me noisy and was forced to become a group leader.
By chance I introduced myself in English.
By chance I was pulled up by my Liaison Officer because I spoke English to join Debate/Public Speaking

And even though I had never had any debating experience, or am really ignorant towards major historical facts and events.
By chance I spoke last during audition and just summarized what I thought.
And I was chosen to represent my college

By chance my college was helped to be trained by the debate society's advisor.
We won. That wasn't chance
We ate, dined, drank like kings.

By chance we all went to the debate society.
We were introduced to model united nations and we're up for selections for MUN in Miri.
We had to prepare a paper about political stuff which I really ave 0 insight or interest in.
So I didn't feel like even writing the paper after a few days because I knew it was so not my Forte.
Deadline was yesterday morning at 10am
By chance I was going broke.
By chance I decided broke or not, I was gonna try withdraw as little money as I could and go for dinner with debating society members.
By chance I was motivated to do the paper by looking at people who graduated post on fb about taking the opportunities that come to you.
By chance I kept questioning Joel about MUN and whether I should do it.
By chance I had enough money to buy coffee and go to the 24 -hour room in the library at 12am.

And I completed the paper and sent it in at 2.30 a.m.

And I made it

I'm going to Miri in 2 days to represent my university in Model United Nations in Curtin,
It might not seem like much
But it means a lot and I am really excited for this.




I studied probability,
chance,

No way, that all of those happened
by chance. 

There's no way all those odds go in my favour over and over and over again, no.

Without a doubt, I have been blessed. I have received grace.
Undeserved favour.
Whatever you believe in, or don't believe in.
and despite my struggles in faith.
Without a doubt, I believe that there is no way all these things happened by chance. I sound like the corniest most christian geek saying the following things.

I truly believe it is God's grace and blessing that I got to where I am. I am eternally grateful because of all the opportunities which I have been given, and the steps I used to walk on and move in this journey were from opportunities that I have prayed to receive in the past. This is how God spoke to me. And I love you, G man, for this.

And there were mentions of alternative universes, like how in an alternate universe I would have never been a part of where I am. I would have never known such a place existed. I would be in no social circle, no society, still have no friends, go through orientation like every other person and not make many friends. Alternate universes where I missed out on an inspiration or an opportunity.

Series of fortunate events.

Locking myself out of my room
Walking into the wrong room
Walking into the wrong house
Locking my things in the wrong house
Breaking into said house
Difficulty in finding friends

Unfortunate, but it's part and parcel of a true university experience. :D



I really feel very alone most of the time here.
It's not like I'm not trying.
I'm afraid

Wow, coming from me?
what the hell.

Yep, I made friends in the debating society sure,
I met a lot of people, in faculty, in college.

But i don't really find closure, friendship, someone to rely on, in class especially.

And I've been really okay with it,
but I know its dangerous to be alone most of the time.
Like now, I go to the library to leech wifi alone. I need a group, or maybe a friend.

BUT DAMN Y IS IT SO HARD TO FIND SOMEONE TO GET CLOSE TO OR BE BUDDIES WITH AHMAHGERDDDDDD SIEN LOR WAN DIE

I MISS PENANG
I MISS FOOD IN PENANG
I MISS PENANG FRIENDS
I MISS MY BED
I MISS USING TOILETS WITH UNBROKEN TOILET SEATS
I MISS BEING BAREFOOT IN MY ROOM
I MISS DRIVING

i miss home

I dont know how to be happy here

I'm lonely, bored, demotivated and pretty much asshole symptoms are just showing up all over me. I'm sorry